"when things don’t turn out right”

there I was sitting right next to her that early friday morning. It didn’t feel like she had been around for sometime now. We both had been too busy with almost everybody around asking us how things were finally going now that we’ve started to patch up after twenty something years. It’s been almost four days and I don’t think I’d been able to connect to her somehow. I know I tried and others have too.
She went to bed and so did I and hope to kiss her goodnight like she always did when I was a lot younger. She stopped me there for a moment and said she didn’t feel it was right and I then hesitated to ask her why,
“I was too old for that ” she uttered. I gave her a smile then afterwards leaned backwards to show her I was okay. I guess she didn’t realize how hurt I was that very instant.
I got up and reached out the door on my way out the room to find someone else to talk to. But I didn’t have much luck then, so I went out the house like I always do - just to think things over.
I guess having to buy a one way ticket coming over here was just the smartest thing I ever did.