Somewhere in time II

When everything is over I hope it'll be much easier to accept than it is now. I know it's never too easy to finally forget something you've always longed for, and when it finally came to you, you realize everything was too good to be true.
Then you start to accept things the way they are, and that you just had to let go. Keeping you here was never the best idea I had in mind, it was what I felt was good and that was all I ever cared for.
I know I've learned my lesson well now that I've lost you, but then again, I know you just had to do what was right. You just had to do what everyone else had expected you to do.
Now I only have myself to look after, In a few years maybe, who knows, I might have found myself peace like never before. I might have found the things that had been promised to me for so long that I had forgotten what it was.
Like an old song that's never been played long enough for some people to remember, I remember how it used to play and how it used to make me feel. But I was young then, now I could hardly tell the words apart from it. I'm forgetting how it all started, but I know exactly how it would end.
I won't have a story to tell you anymore, this will be the last you will ever hear

How it all started

I didn't really get to explain a lot when I had her on the phone. I felt like I had a lot of things that I had to tell her and I didn't exactly know where to start.
I hung up after realizing she didn't really have the time to talk to things over, and I'm like "why do I even bother?".
I reached out for the hand set one more time and tried punching in a few phone numbers, it was funny I couldn't exactly remember who I was supposed to call.
I walked out of the phone booth and went down the street hoping I'd find something or someone. there I was, standing right underneath the sky and started really thinking hard about a lot of things.
I saw a couple of people staring at me, and they probably think I'm out of my mind. Well the things, I don't really care about what they say, but I wonder what they'd feel or how they'd react if they knew what I had in mind.... Hmm, maybe I'd love for them to figure that out.
There's just this one guy over the side of the street who's looking straight back at me. I'm trying to think of something or trying to come up of anything that he could be thinking of.
I mean seriously, If he knew what I was thinking he'd, be running for his life.
I took a shortcut on the way back when the lights went green, I figured, I just can't keep staring at people and hope some of them would come over to explain.
I kept on walking a couple more blocks and I knew I was getting tired of trying to think of something I always wanted. don't get me wrong, I want a lot of things but I just know I can't have them all.
And so I have stopped, I held out my hands up the sky and felt everything coming down, I wanted to tell him all that I've longed for, and to tell him that it was ok and I just know things are really going to be different.
I stood there for a while, when I suddenly heard someone call my name, and guess who!
I opend my eyes and there he was.... not too young anymore, but looks a lot younger than I do,
a bit stuffy but always on the go... My old man, he was staring at me the whole time and I had been too. This time I kinda think I knew what he was thinking.
He asked how I went thru my day and I said, well,
" life gives you everything you need, and it can really make you unhappy when you start looking for the things that you don't have. "
Seriously, he just smiled and gave me a pat. we went inside and that's how it all started.